Steven Engles

From victim to survivor

  This is the first time I’ve ever written a blog, I don’t really know where to start so I guess I’ll just start with the basic background of how I came to starting up a blog about being a male survivor of sexual abuse. It all started when I was around 4-5 years old, […]

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Man in the Dark

I’m making a film about a night that happened in 2013. I was making my way home after a party when a man stepped out of the dark and sexually assaulted me as I was 15 metres away from my front door. I don’t think I knew what was actually happening at that moment in […]

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30 years

  In 1974 I was a troubled and vulnerable young man. 18 years old and struggling with my sexuality I had been seeing psychiatrists, was anxious, and in a lot of conflict with my parents. My struggle was to come to terms with being gay and get my parents to accept me. I had one […]

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Self-blame

I was in my mid-20s, openly bisexual, very confident, and had enjoyed a great Saturday night out with my housemates. I had drunk a lot. We were outside the local gay club, having a ciggy. I’d noticed these two guys several times over the last year or so. Everyone noticed them. They were athletic, good […]

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Responsibility

This is a big one. If you read this, it should sting. If I write this right, it should sting me too. Recovery is about responsibility. Healing is about you taking responsibility for your healing. It’s not down to anyone else. Your healing is no one else’s responsibility. This is entirely unfair. You were the […]

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